Entry #2 - The fear of the doubt
2021-06-29 I have lived my whole life in fear, fear of trusting people, i have been betrayed and thrown away so many times i came to the conclusion it was worthless to believe in people, because in the end.. There all the same, it is always the same history, always ends the same... What should one do when you think you finally found someone you can trust? What should one do when the think of "maybe this time will be different" strike? When someone has been alone in the dark so long, even the slightest light ray looks suspicious, Can anyone blame you for not trusting? No, it is completely understandable, completely acceptable. Without our distrust we would not be alive by now, distrust is what makes us survive, so don't be afraid, it is okay, or at least, that is what we say to our self's, to others, to find a reasonable explanation why we doubt when in the end, we don't want to. Imagine you finally meet that person, and after all, you end up trusting him/her, Wh...